Esmeralda's Elysium

Missing You

2011-11-12T01:36:00.001+08:00

I feel unsafe, I feel insecure.. I just want you here by my side.. :(

2011-08-10T23:02:00.002+08:00

Sometimes i sit and wonder, that when because of an action someone else did, and because of it, my reaction has led people away... Do I get bothered by it... well, truthfully, yes... it does... I wonder is it truly because of the way I talk, or is it the way that people do not understand me... but all I know is, it is the way it is, and if they leave, let them.. i can't say much to it... I cant be bothered to care about those who do not care... I care for those who needs caring for and those who wants it...

Sigh.. lying in bed alone, rambling... what a life i lead now...

Just a day at the playground

2011-07-10T22:39:00.002+08:00

Went to the playground the other day, took some shots.

Too lazy to caption it so here you are! =D

Time for a Recap - New Friends

2011-06-25T21:28:00.012+08:00

It's been forever since I wrote anything here. All's been well, I've been busy with a different life, hanging out with different friends and enjoying myself.

For the past months, I've changed, I'm no longer the girl I used to be and still changing for the better. I'm still me nonetheless.

Hanging with different friends help me grow and learn so many new things, some fun, some useful and some just plain silly.

Being with them, fills up most of my time with the joys of laughter. I am not known to have many friend surrounding me, so I truly feel blessed to have this new group of friends, whom I care about.

There are so many fun times together and memories that can never be replaced.

Fellowships that bonds us closer together and slowly builds us stronger. I've never been in such a close knit group such as this before, so it still doesn't cease to amaze me how this group of people have come into my life.

Similarly, times of fun will indeed come to an end, and some of us will be leaving. I will sincerely miss them and times will not be the same without them. We will forge on thanks to those graduating, and because of their spirit, inspiring us, we learn to grow together.

Smiles will be there to welcome us, and see us off, but these smiles belong to us. No one can take them away from us, because we still have time to have fun and enjoy these innocent moments.

The sun shines in on our lives so that we may see clearly the people around us. The people who care about us. I am so thankful that in times of sickness, a text message will appear to wish me well, before a flight, hugs of goodbye bids me farewell. Love that touches the ounces in my heart.

Friends who stick together, are what I've always wished for, always wanted, and I'd give my life to protect them, and I thank God for granting me this wish.

You guys are wonderful, and thank you for letting me in this group, and I hope you have had as much fun as I have had with you guys.

When it's my time to leave, I'll miss each and every one of you and I'll fight through the tears to tell you guys how much I love you.

Finally!!

2011-03-01T16:33:00.002+08:00

I finally own my own dSLR!

I finally can take artsy fartsy shots of random things now by zooming in real close and leaving space between foreground and background... *jaw drops*

Tada!! My super cute lion's butt! =D

Not as cute up front tho... a tad messy... But I will work on it more! RAWR~!

I'm so so happy with my JellyBean now.. ^^

Cheers!

Sometimes

2011-02-15T19:43:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, I just wish I could tell people what I really think.

Sometimes, I just wish I could say how happy I really am.

Sometimes, I just gotta hide my happiness, because it'd bring others pain.

Sometimes, I feel like I wanna be selfish and just be happy.

But sometimes, I know I will never live with the guilt.

So for now, I live, hiding who I am, why I am, and what I am.
I can't share how happy I really am, for now, just a while, even for a splitting second, I truly am happy. With a reason, with a secret. Sometimes, I wish I could tell.

Someday.

11 Feb 2011

2011-02-14T22:51:00.001+08:00

Whoops, and I forgot to mention, my mum's birthday was the other day, I had to rush making this lil card for her...

I think she liked it.. =)
I love you mummy!

Valentine's 2011

2011-02-14T22:12:00.003+08:00

Got a lovely gift from someone. Didn't get to see who dropped it off, coz I was away at KK for the weekend...

It's the most adorable thing ever.

There was a rose that came with it. I undid the wrapper and placed it in a bottle. =)
This is becoming one of the best years ever.. =)

xoxo

Happy V'day, people.

speaking of which, I find it silly that the Malaysian government is trying to ban V'day across the country, giving reasons like "it's not for unmarried Muslim couples" while beginning of the month they made such a ruckus about it's a Christian celebration when it's not (something about pagan gods too) so silly. Now just trying to make it sound like they weren't attacking other races.

By the way, kids of all races, as long as they do not care what you think, would "do" it in the comforts of homes, you think you can spot-check all houses?

Besides, I'm sure there are some girls who can show some restraint of not showing their "goods" just because someone gives em a teddy bear.. Don't you think so? =.=

Still 2 more hours till this day is over anyway..

Me!

2011-01-11T18:30:00.001+08:00

My self portrait. I'm aware I rarely look dolled up nowadays, I still like looking pretty.

But I think this doesn't look enough like me. Perhaps like 50%-60%?

The Grapevine

2010-12-21T10:05:00.004+08:00

In case you haven't heard, that I'm selling the cards/prints/shoes wadever I make. Please head on to the Grapevine for more. =)

*Click here for the jump!

Christmas Cheer

2010-12-19T16:04:00.002+08:00

It's the time of the year, and time for a card to commemorate the occasion. =)

A simple, classic design, with a bit of a white lace.

Yeap, the words are stitched on, and the tree is in 3D.

This is a time when Hope & Faith is renewed.
Be merry with joys of the Season,
but give Thanks for the Redeemer
He was Born, He has Lived, He has Died for us.

Merry Christmas & Happy New Year.

Btw, if you haven't known yet, my other blog solely posts on the Creations that I make for sale. Do drop by if you're free... =)

The Grapevine - http://visiting-thegrapevine.blogspot.com/

Hot chocolate

2010-11-08T18:25:00.003+08:00

Finally got my photoshop working... Yay~

Tears Unforseen

2010-10-21T22:44:00.002+08:00

I have never known you, nor have I seen you, but your life has an impact on mine. Because you lived, I could have the happiest time I have ever had. Because you left, I saw the happiness cracked.

Every chance I got to be alone, I mourned. I tried drowning my tears as the hot water showered my face. Though I had to show that it was not me who was grieving, but I could not hold the tears. They slip out like water held in my palms.

The empty room was a sanctuary, where no one could see me slowly break, I have no idea, why a person I have never met, can bring me tears.

When I saw him, strong, taking things into his own hands, it broke my heart. Why did a pain so deep befall a person so young? And he did his best, to hold on, in shock, pacing the room. Only glimpses of redness in his eyes show the pain, other than that, he showed nothing.

One day, I shall understand.

Isaiah 41:10 (New International Version)

So do not fear, for I am with you;
do not be dismayed, for I am your God.
I will strengthen you and help you;
I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.

I pray that you'll both find peace.

Card: Puzzle Pieces

2010-09-23T18:25:00.002+08:00

Unrelated: So many crap is happening right now. Not that I'm not thankful
for all the wonderful things that are happening to me, but sometimes, the burden
feels so heavy that I feel like breaking down.

So, yea... Made another card again, this time it's a puzzle piece card.

From the inside

I actually found an old puzzle set, so might as well use it right? LOL! I'm such a pack rat.

Oh, and I'm also trying out some new stiching techniques! ^^ So, so fun!

2 cards in 1 post

2010-08-31T15:06:00.003+08:00

I made this card for a friend's birthday.

Has a lot of visual graphics. A simple card.

On a different occasion, made this Thank You card for another friend. Attached a piece of chocolate on blue-tac for her too. ^^

Was too lazy to write the note, so might as well print it out and then paste it on.

The Last Airbender Movie Review

2010-08-09T14:20:00.005+08:00

Well, I'm a huge fan of the animated series. Once I saw the poster last year I was so so disappointed! It looked horrid.

Then I saw the trailer. Bah! But I thought I'll give it a shot since Dev Patel is in it.

Then a friend said, "Meh, let's just watch it for the effects. Airbending worr..."
So I thought "okay, that's it. Let's go watch."

So here is a summary of what I thought of the movie in The Legend of Aang series stills.

Initial reaction:

"wait, my name's 'Ung'?"

Oh don't give me shit about how Aang's Chinese name is pronounced "ung",

it's an English movie for goodness sake!

Halfway through the movie:

"Make it stop!!"

"What the hell is this crap?"

Ung's (I shall refer to him as Ung to avoid confusion with Aang) airbending looked so slow and his air was not as concentrated as in the anime. I suppose it's not easy to make a air scooter look decent in CG and seeing he's on the wire a lot, he can't run/fly as fast.

a joke.

Saw Waterbending:

*pukes*

*continue puking*

The water they bent looks more like Katara's bending when she first tried. The water looks like it was so unstable and was gonna disperse in an instant!

"I'm Indian?"
I have not much qualms about Uncle Iroh's (still not over the pronounciation change) character. He still seems tea-loving and wise. Apparently the only fire bender who can create fire form his fists.

Yes, apparently, they can only bend fire from already lit fire sources.
Wouldn't the war be won already when everyone just put out the fires?

=.="

Saw Firebending:

*speechless*

They can't bend fire..

wait, Ung's not a carefree kid?

But air nomads' characteristics are carefree and untroubled

coz they have let go of their worldly issues.

I know, Ung has the responsibility of the world to bear, but he ran away coz he wanted to be carefree, remember? Yet he goes around reminding people how emo he is.

Btw, did anyone noticed he looks like a sulking bulldog half the time?

"Make it stop!!!"

Saw earthbending:

"whaaaa....?"

They were just chucking tiny pebbles and a few boulders. Even the rock walls look flimsy.

Oh speaking of Katara, since when does she look like she was gonna cry the entire time?

Oh and how dumb is she that she gets knocked down by a second fireball that is going that slow? =.=

"I don't fight like that!!"

Oh but props to Sokka and Yue's scene. The only thing they got right.

*snobby hand clap*

I couldn't stand watching the people bend the elements.

It takes more than 8 secs after they get into the martial arts moves then the elements bend.

They'll be dead by then!!

In the anime, one hand movement from Katara is enough to raise a whip already.

And Ung has to do the whole swan lake dance steps to raise water from a pot.

Oh poor Appa. He just basically looks like a giant muddy Momo.

"I'm ruined!"

The ending was crap! Where the hell is Aang's Avatar State where he merges with the Spirit of the Moon? The giant wave monster that wipes out the fire navy?

Who creates an impending tsunami and just puts it down? And has to cry no less... =.=

One very general comment for M. Night Syamalan.

WATCH THE CARTOON!

Yes, I know some of you will say, the movie is for the benefit of those who don't watch the cartoon, but the movie is written as based on the Nickelodeon show, so at least base the concepts of the cartoon right!

So regretted spending RM9 and 1.5 hours that i'll never get back!

The next sequel, I'll just find it from someone who has it. Don't plan to waste money on it.

The only reason I'm watching it is, I wanna see how is Toph done. She's an awesome character and if they get her right, I could still be okay with the trilogy.

Another good point of the movie. Firelord Ozai, despite being Indian, not bad, he's quite convincing. Another rheotorical question, why is Admiral Zhao, the character being Indian, having a Chinese surname?

Dumbo

2010-07-23T19:32:00.002+08:00

Was watching Dumbo and decided to do some screencaps. It's sorta my first time, so no laughing!

Well unless it's those good laughs.. ^^

Miri~

2010-07-23T12:51:00.005+08:00

Well I'm back in Miri!

The sad thing is I'm all alone.... *sobs*

Anyone wanna go anywhere?

So for now, I'm staying with Aunty Annie to kill time.

On the bright side, I get to eat nice food. =)

Roasted Chicken

Served with Veges and Roasted Potato

~~(it's fried actually)~~.

Pin Up Dolls

2010-07-21T13:04:00.001+08:00

I do wish I had these outfits... =(

Okay, now to stop fooling around and procrastinating, and continue with my studies!

I Still Need a DSLR

2010-07-07T15:35:00.003+08:00

This is the perfect post to show you people, if you happen to know my dad, tell him I NEED a dSLR to take more decent macro shots!

Sigh... Sad..

1. Picture of daddy jogging.

2. Scene in the park.

3. The scene at the lake. Looked foggy.

4. The bridge.

5. Fruit basket with fruits of the season. =D

I want a dSLR!!! >.<>

Stamps DIY

2010-07-06T14:27:00.005+08:00

and not the type that you lick and paste on your envelope.

Well I was scrolling over those stamps online, and my, they're sorta pricey. So, while deciding on those that are bigger, might as well try making some small ones, right?

Remember back in primary school we used to use pens and draw shapes on erasers and stamp them on paper really quickly before the ink dries? Well, similar concept.

First, I took a standard eraser. Well, any eraser that you don't use anymore, but make sure the place you want to make your stamp on is level.

Then here, I drew an image of a fluer de lis. I know, over-estimated myself. But was worth a shot, right?
Then I carved the sides and just leaving just the image that I want to be a bit embossed. Put some ink then go stamp crazy. ^^

Then I felt adventurous and went on to make another. I tried a paw print this time.

Same concept. Carved the sides and leave the image embossed. Aww, the paw look so cute.

Then could make a cute simple Thank You card. ^^ Cute right?

Oh this is a simple one. It's just a heart shape. But I'm thinking of modifying it sometime in the near future.

Coz I think the surface area is too large, the ink dries up too fast. We'll see.

I'm so proud, being my first time trying to make these. =D

Feels nice to accomplish something, doesn't it?

I wanna be The Sorcerer’s Apprentice

2010-07-05T11:56:00.002+08:00

When I first heard of the production of the Sorcerer's Apprentice, I was thinking, "Wow! They're remaking the scene off Fantasia!"

Who can forget Mickey, having to do the Sorcerer's chores, then he decided to "borrow" the Sorcerer's hat and conjure up brooms with arms to do it for him.

If I had powers from that hat, I'd literally want to do the same thing. Hey, Mickey was a genius k? He just did not master the powers before trying.

I'd want powers to help me create clones (not brooms) of myself, make them go for my lectures, and do my assignments, do my chores, then to top it off, I'll be the beneficiary. The knowledge they gain, will sync in directly to my brain. Awesome right?

Mickey's idea was not really the brightest idea though. It snowballed so fast and more and more brooms appeared after hacking them with an axe. Not really sure it was the best thing to showed kids, but hey, those were the days when mice could blow cats up and the cat'd be up and running the next second.

Like in so many sci-fi movies, ideas with clones, no matter how perfect they are, will likely blow up in my face. Let's see, there'll be the clones being more popular than me because they have my social life, because they're out and about, the guy I like might end up liking her more than me. *Gasp*

Okay, you know what, screw the whole thought of me making clones.

Mickey on the other hand, well, he got the broom after his master set things right. Aww, poor Mickey never got to really learn from his teacher.
So you could tell my excitement of knowing they're making this movie. Then one day, I read that Nicholas Cage was tapped to be in the movie, it shocked me! It's sorta hard imagining him a big shiny hat.

Then, I gone on to read the rough storyline, Cage is the Sorcerer, about to teach a young lad magic to save the world, or something like that. You know me, I skim through really fast so I don't spoil the movie too much for myself.

Awesome! That means, the apprentice will get to learn. So if I had powers, I'd want Cage as my teacher, teach me how to handle the powers properly, then cast my spells of the clones and get them to sign contracts that what's mine is mine.

Congrats to you Mickey, coz once again, another expected blockbuster in your empire.

And once again, you still have the full support of this lifetime fan of yours. ^^

With so much love,

xoxo

Card: Belle Inspired

2010-07-03T21:55:00.002+08:00

Another card, coz I was bored. This one's a bit more colourful. Doubt anyone would want this one though.

I've put it extra detail on the sides, a little bit of bling. ^^ coz I felt like it.

The insides are plain and simple.

And just like any other princess, there's a hidden page for you to write you secret note to that person. =)

Au Revoir.

Card: Hearts and Sparkles

2010-07-03T15:45:00.002+08:00

Recuperating from my allergies at home. Not fun at all. So might as well continue with the cards.

It's sorta very simple for this one.

I did't want to over power the tiny crystals I put on it.

Simple design for the inside.

Again, no words in/on it yet. So it could be customised when needed.

Card: Chic Stripes

2010-07-01T18:49:00.003+08:00

Made this today. Felt a bit productive =)

There's no words on it (yet), so I could use it for any occasion.. ^^ Anyone wanna buy it?

The inside.

Pay attention to the details. I embossed the sides a bit.

The card can be used vertically too! ^^ Awesome right? And the colours are very unisex-ed, so perfect for guys and girls.

I shall see what I whip up tomorrow.

Durian and Cake and Ice-Cream

2010-06-30T10:27:00.004+08:00

Last night, went out to celebrate my parents' 气功 (Qi Gong, Chi Gong) teacher.

Well, my post isn't about the dinner. The whole gang went to Papar a few days ago.

It's about the cake. It's made of DURIAN!! The cream is made of durian flesh and cream, the sponge cake is filled with durian.

Absolutely to rave for. Part of the reason I'm posting this cake here, as a sequel to the durian I ate in the previous post, is to brag to Jeremiah. LOLs! Poor guy, no durian yet, huh?

Well after dinner, went to McD's for ice-cream, coz I didn't eat much during dinner, due to the gummy trouble. Sigh.

I ordered the Chocolate Sundae, as opposed to the usual Chocotop Sundae. I think I haven't had a Sundae in a cup since I was a kid.

Well overall it was a fun night. =)

One thing though, I find it funny when a bunch of people cheering for their teams at McD's. Really? Really? Do they hear you when you miss a shot?

From what I've heard, last night's Paraguay vs Japan game took forever. Luckily McD's 24 hrs in Labuan.

Gummy Trouble

2010-06-29T17:02:00.003+08:00

For two days, my gums have swelled over my wisdom tooth. I have two wisdom teeth, both on the left side, upper and lower jaw respectively. It used to be, albeit a bit out of place, but it never caused me so much pain before.

Yesterday, it swelled a bit, and today, it swelled a lot more.

Forgive the quality of the picture. Not easy to hold a phone light shining into my mouth with one hand, while clicking the camera with another.

You could even see the dents on the gum where my upper jaw bites down on. Ouch!

And I think the inner cheek is swelling too. Sigh. I've always been worried if my wisdom teeth would require surgical removal, but dentists have assured me it was okay. Now I'm not too sure, because from the pic, it looked quite deep. Sigh.

It hurts. Probably sticking to a liquid diet for a while.

26th June Trip to Papar

2010-06-27T22:33:00.003+08:00

Went to Papar on Saturday (No, not Paper). Stayed in KK for the night, then came back again. For an event that I have totally no interest in covering so I shall spare you that.

Here comes the food. The only up side to the trip.

Dim Sum!

No idea where, coz I was asleep in the car, so I couldn't be bothered to look at the signboard.

Lao Sa Pao

Yes, I'm aware of what the name sounds like.

It's like a pao, with a runny, salted egg yolk with butter filling. It's sorta nice.

Egg tart, the size of a bottle cap.

Scallop Siew Mai

Chicken Porridge with Century Egg.

Lunch.

Fighting for food.

While driving back, we passed some roadside fruit vendors, and we had to step out and buy fruits that we missed. It's not extremely cheap. Regular prices but, the taste, *smacks fingers to lips* oh yums!

Not sure what the official name for this is, but we call it Talap.

King of Fruits (as kindies taught us), Durians!

One of my favourite fruits.

Don't diss the colour.

It actually taste better than it looks. Like seriously.

On the way back, it rained quite heavily. As thought an omen of what was to come.

It was a nice run. It was something that I have no regrets. Thanks for the memories. Thanks for the fun times. But all good things must come to an end. =)

Loves~

Black and Whites

2010-06-25T17:53:00.007+08:00

WOW! It's been forever since I properly blogged. My shitty Celcom Broadband modem has been absolute shit and kept me from having a social life on the internet. Heck, it's been an obstacle for my studies too.

Need to find a way to get a stable line in Miri.

Anyways, I'm back in Labuan now, and baby, I won't be wasting the fast speed internet I have here! So pics! Pics!

[p/s: I love this set of pictures, minimal make up and minimal photoshop. Just plain angles and lights to look good. ^^]

1. I'm back and I'm loving it.

2. New curls.

3. Blurred out, but I still like this pic.

4. Loving my bed again.

5. Fiddling with black and whites.

5. Smiles

6. Discovered B/W with flash looks awesome!

7. Hey, it looks like I'm looking at the word "Elysium" there.

8. Palm

9. Oh so bright!

10. Oh so cheesy smile.

11. I missed my full length mirror.

12. Big clown smile =D

13. Oh this is just plain lame.

14. My favourite pic in this collection. A relaxed look.

15. Lying down.

16. Ran out of captions.

17. Love this pic too!

18. Love waking up and looking at you in the morning.

19. Cuddling is awesome too.

This collection doesn't really have a certain emotional theme. Just that I was bored and was fiddling with my camera. I miss camwhoring.

Yes, I'm vain and shallow. Welcome to my world.

Loves~

Nokia 5530 XM is MINE!

2010-06-05T05:28:00.002+08:00

Wow... It's been literally a month without blogging. Sorry, due to the sucky internet line that I'm using.

(Thank you Celcom Broadband for being an @** and making me wake up at 6am whenever I need to study or facebook.) Okay, now that the bimbo me is out of the way, my mum was over in Miri the other day, then we went out shopping.

Well basically I've been complaining about my old phone shutting down or lagging or even freezing, so she said get me a new phone... *prayed for iPhone*

Went to the Apple shop, but well, once I heard the price, my heart sank. How do people afford iPhones? Honestly, any phone over RM1000 is definitely too much for me, unless they can offer me something that I totally cannot refuse. Awesome camera? Well, I could always get a dSLR. Internet access? I have my laptop, thanks. Yes, I'm very much a prude.

Anyways, so my mum got me this phone for RM700. Yes, you read right RM700. And the reason why I wanted an iPod touch in the first place was for the music player and organizer. Maybe for the games too but oh well. And at that point I thought I could still use my old phone, coz iPhone is still too expensive.

This phone provides me with those needs, plus a new phone! Yay! I sound like a high schooler with a new phone. Haha.

It's a Nokia XpressMusic phone so the sound quality is actually not bad. (The speakers are at the top and bottom of the phone on the front. Giving you a left/right or up/down feel.)

I love how the phone's screen colors are so striking. Every now and then I just wanna whip out my phone to text people for no reason. Just hope my phone bills won't suddenly rise up.

I seriously think my apps button is the most overused button. So. Many. Things. To. Play. With.

Well, back to business. I really need an organizer. If any of you who knew me in real life, would know that I'm one of the most unorganized person in the world. I could do just about anything, just as long as I could rearrange my time.

Seriously. No sh*t. I had to get one of my friends to be my Personal Assistant. She's the best person in the whole world! Lols.

Now, I can literally have my organizer plan everything for me! So I can actually remember when I should be where for what. Awesome!

So now, other than knowing when are my meetings, my exams, my dates, I just need to remember to key in the events. Must. Remember. To. Do. That.

For now, I just need to stop playing this Guitar Hero look-a-like game on my phone.

Rock ON!

Ponders - "A Woman's Question"

2010-05-06T11:51:00.003+08:00

Been reading "I Kissed Dating Goodbye" by Joshua Harris. It's a really good read. Would be willing to give a summary if anyone asks for it. =)

Well there's a poem in there, written by Lena Lathrop, "A Woman's Question" have really touched me in so many ways. Felt like sharing it.

Do you know you have asked for the costliest thing
Ever made by the Hand above?
A woman's heart, and a woman's life -
And a Woman's wonderful love

Do you know you have asked for this priceless thing
As a child might ask for a toy?
Demanding what others have died to win,
With the reckless dash of a boy

You have written my lesson of duty out
Manlike, you have questioned me.
Now stand at the bars of my woman's soul
Until I shall question thee.
You require your mutton shall always be hot,
Your socks and your shirt be whole;
I require your heart be true as God's starts
And as pure as His heaven your soul.

You require a cook for your mutton and beef,
I require a far greater thing;
A seamstress you're wanting for socks and shirts -
I look for a man and a king.

A king for the beautiful realm called Home,
And a man that his Maker, God,
Shall look upon as He did on the first
And say: "It is very good."

I am fair and young, but the rose may fade
From this soft young cheek one day;
Will you love me then 'mid the falling leaves,
As you did 'mong the blossoms of May?

Is your heart an ocean so strong and true,
I may launch my all on its tide?
A loving woman finds heaven or hell
On the day she is made a bride.

I require all things that are grand and true,
All things that a man should be;
If you give this all, I would stake my life
To be all you demand of me.

If you cannot be this, a laundress and cook
You can hire and little to pay;
But a woman's heart and a woman's life
Are not to be won that way.

Sandakan Trip

2010-04-18T01:16:00.002+08:00

Wow, I haven't been blogging in a while. Sorry. Have been so wrapped up in my work. Tend to forget I have a blog.

During the Easter break, went back to Sandakan for a bit. 清明 and all. Sandakan is good for one thing tho. Food.

Loads of food.

Then there were the cousins that I have not met, and the cousin I have not met in years, and the cousin who has given birth to a son already, and a girl on the way. Wow. I must be getting old.
Sandakan is also kinda known for the monkey sanctuaries. "Sabah's best kept secret" or something. But how is it best kept when people know about it right?

It was raining, so we opted out the Orang Utans, and went for the Proboscis Monkey's sanctuary.
There were a lot of monkeys at the sanctuary, especially during feeding time. Was kinda boring during the wait though.
But the scene was lovely. Particularly the pitter patter of the rain on the zinc roofs.
Will try to keep my blog alive as regularly as I can k? ^^ Promise...

Outing with Trishby

2010-03-27T13:17:00.002+08:00

Unrelated: I'm back in La La Land baby~

Well one of those days I just didn't feel like going to class, went out with Trish. Woo~ Had a blast.

You know those sticker machines most likely you've played when you were a kid? Yea, we went and played that.

Seriously, I can't touch the screen and get the "add ons" on anyplace I wanted them to be. >.<>

Took us 2 long hours for 9 pictures okay? LOL

But we had loads of fun! Teehee..

These are our favourites. =)

We need to plan a next outing lah~

Mish yew~

ADV: SkinFood Again

2010-03-24T01:53:00.003+08:00

Just to start the post off with a picture of me.

Not sure if I've posted a proper picture of a current short hair pic of me yet. So here you go.

With the bigger eyes, purple pupils, and freaky make up.

Don't deny that you adore me! ~~Sot!~~

I guess I might as well keep to the advert now. I bought more SkinFood products again! Yay!

Bought a new smudge brush. For smoke eyes and all that. >.<

The basic greys that comes with a cute mirror!
Even the box looks nice. "Sugar Bloom Shadow Eyes"
Then a facial cleanser. "Black Sugar Jelly Foam"
Man, no wonder I'm broke...

E.O.S. Contact Lens

2010-03-06T23:40:00.004+08:00

ADV:

I have been searching for some coloured contact lens for a while, and yet there are no affordable ones that is easier on the reflective degree.

Then as I was walking around the mall and I saw this brand. E.O.S., which I've never heard of. But it was on promotion, so might as well try it.

They have a wide range of designs to choose from: The list could be found HERE, which has many categories:

The Purple one in the last box above, is the one that caught my attention. Not many people around have purple contact lenses, so okay, I got that one.

So I got the purple violet one! So chio!

The eye on my right (your left) is actually bigger, can you differentiate the differences?

Vain as I am... the bottom part are all camwhore shots...

Sleepy as I typed this... >.<>

Sakura Stalks

2010-02-24T14:25:00.003+08:00

It was a boring and hot hot HOT day at campus today. Nothing much to do but sit there and give out cards.

So came back and had to think of a way to get my creative juices flowing before I'm drained of boredom, I went out to One Stop and walked around to see what to buy. Yea, I know. Sorry daddy, wasting unnecessary money. But I need to.

Anyways, gone and bought those long winding stalks. Coz they look so artsy and what not.

Then I set them up in a box, coz, you know, sad, not enough budget to buy a vase. Doesn't matter. Coz it's only in my room right?

Then I put them flowers on, which are leftovers from my bulletin board.

Tada!!

I feel a bit more at home, when I'm with more "inspiring" things around me. *grins*

Excuse the mess on the ground.

It's the plastics from the stalks.

Besides, now there's a new place to camwhore. LOL.

I know I haven't updated lately, so...

2010-02-23T12:17:00.003+08:00

... let me show you me camwhoring! I am so in love with my new camera. I don't mind it not being a dSLR, coz I won't be able to hold it up properly anyways. =)

So yea. new pics.

1. The miss that scent that makes me fall in love with you.

2. Sunflowers are my favourite now. ^-^

3. That is where you touched my heart

4. I dunno what to caption this, coz I just like the lighting.

4. I know I'm safe when you're watching over me in my dreams.

Have been watching this Taiwanese drama series, 就想赖着你, with Jerry Yan and Ella. Brings out major LOLs and AWWs.. ~~Why can't I ever find cute guys like that? *pouts* JK!~~

But it's so sweet, and so unreal, yet I still want it. Then again, I think I'm very happy at where I am now. =) My life's near perfect anyways.

2010-02-22T22:17:00.003+08:00

Did this personality quiz on Facebook a while ago. It stunned me that by asking some random storyline questions, asking about the details you see in your imagination, it could tell your personality.

Below are the questions:

1. Imagine that you are walking along a path. What do you see around you?
Forest, so much forest that you can hardly see the sky.
A yellow corn field against a brilliant blue sky.
Softly sloping green hills, with a view of mountains in the distance.

2. What do you see near your feet?
A mirror
A ring
A bottle

3. Will you pick it up?
Yes
No

4. You walk along and find water. In what form is the water?
A lake
A waterfall
A river

5. You see a key in the water and you pick it up. What does it look like?
An ordinary house key
A beautiful antique key
A small silver locker key

6. Next you stumble across a house. What type of house is it?
A spacious Hollywood mansion
A hut with a garden full of flowers
A beautiful old stone castle

7. What do you do next?
Look into the window
Walk right on inside and explore
Walk away. You're not that interested.

8. Suddenly, something jumps out at you. What is it?
A bear
A wizard
A spider

9. Because you are so scared you run until you see a wall blocking the path in front of you. There is a door, but it's locked, so you look through the key hole. What do you see?
A beautiful house with a vast garden.
A pond in the middle of a desert.
A beach with waves crashing onto the sand.

Then I headed to my answers and describe me almost down to a T!

Dear Esmeralda Yvonne, below are your Personality Tests result:
Who is your true self: You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.
Your view on yourself:
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You are down-to-earth
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : People like you because you are so straightforward
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking:
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You are not looking merely for a girl/boyfriend - you are looking for your life partner
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Perhaps you should be more open-minded about who you spend time with
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : The person you are looking for might hide their charm under their exterior
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person
The seriousness of your love:
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You are very serious about relationships
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : If you meet the right person
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You will fall deeply
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Beautifully in love
Your views on education:
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Education is very important in life
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You want to study hard
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Learn as much as you can
The right job for you:
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You're a practical person
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Will choose a secure job with a steady income
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Knowing what you like to do is important
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Find a regular job doing just that
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You'll be set for life
How do you view success:
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Nothing will stop you from trying
What are you most afraid of:
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Independence is important to you

Amazing!!

Ramblings

2010-02-09T18:12:00.002+08:00

After a few days of being home, being nagged at, watching loads of TV, playing fb games, waiting for comments or statuses to update, waiting for phone calls to see if anyone bothers to check in on me. It driving me insane!

I am not that hyped about CNY for some reason. I just want to go back to Miri. I need to start working again. I've been slacking off a lot, I admit. But lately there have been a lot of shit in my life, that I needed to go through first, then head on to the next plate of shit.

It doesn't help that the person I lean on most can't help me. Sigh. When I'm starting a new semester, he'd be away in a different place. Not that I'm a stranger to Long Distance Relationships, but fuck this. I hate being apart. I need love too! I shall stay single! >.<>

I feel like I don't really like being out of the house too much either. I'm becoming a broccoli soon. Vegetate. Ugh. Not even my sentences make sense anymore.

Being offline for a few days, is actually liberating. Might consider doing it for the long run. But then how will people find me? Most people still don't have my phone number!?

Flying to Kuching tomorrow. I hope something wonderful or exciting will happen to me this hols, or it'd be so boring.

p/s: doubt there is internet connection there, unless I go to McD's or KFC everyday, so prolly will lay off blogging and facebooking for 6+ days. Damn!

That Girl

2010-02-05T22:50:00.005+08:00

I don't know what's going on with me. I've tried ignoring the words, I've tried ignoring the person all in all. I don't think I did anything wrong. I have done nothing that has gone against my conscience on this matter.

Yet, why am I the one, alone, in bed with my eyes sore, typing another blog post?

My own mother doesn't think I'm right, yet she was the one who so boldly went ahead to spill the beans so enthusiastically. Fucked up.

I can't stand those people who're dumb enough to believe such obvious lies. My dear, you're fat!! 90+kgs, you think that many guys are around so you think you're hot stuff?? You're not! I'm the only one who dares tell you the truth coz I care! They're around you coz you're fucking rich ok? What sisterly love. My bloody ass!

You think you go around crying, saying I bullied you, yea. What=fucking ever ok? I don't gain anything from this. You think you're a bloody saint? You lie every chance you get, just so you get guys' attention. You're a pathetic sad case! You think people who don't support you out drinking and fornicating with those deadbeats are your enemy.

WAKE UP! We're not the ones using your money for cheap beer ok? You're fucking 18! It's illegal to drink! wtf.

Why the hell am i writing such a long post anyway? You can barely read English. I doubt you even have a dictionary thick enough to translate this post. I'm glad we're not related in any way anymore. I'm ashamed to call you my sister in the first place. I don't want anything to do with a girl who goes out ruining herself.

Dear Lord, I'm sorry for the horrid thoughts I had. But Lord, have mercy on her soul though she doesn't believe in You.

Father, bless us all.

p/s: This Girl, I'm going to make it official so I'm announcing it here. Teo Lu Yuan, is no longer my God Sister, no longer my mother's God daughter, nor am I her mum's God daughter. I wish to have no relations to her. If you see her soliciting on the streets, it has nothing to do with me.

Do not inform me, for I have no interest in her whatsoever. I have done my best to pull her in, and that she doesn't take the advice or the precautions set for her, is her deal. ~~You find her dead in the streets, I still won't pick up her corpse. Call her friends.~~

I'm done. Peace Out.

Licensed Scam Artist

2010-02-05T19:13:00.003+08:00

I was shopping with my dad just now, and you know those stalls with loud music blasting, people walking around, passing out flyers and say, boss, you stand a chance to win these these these prizes if you just buy our products off this rack for only RM5.

Normally I'd walk off, but I was looking at the blender and I actually wanted one. So yea, I walked over with my dad and they were like bombarding us with all these questions, where are your from etc.

"Okay", I thought, "no biggie, normal information."

"Okay miss, can give me your IC so I can key in the information?"

"Sure." Hands over my IC.

As she keys in my name and IC number (really slowly and many typos to go with it), another lady was talking to my dad, introducing the massage chair, the sauna house etc.

I thought,

"Wow, these people are really bad in PR, at least get someone who could talk better and type better. These people are really giving a bad impression to people. Bad Mandarin, bad English."

Then she goes on saying, pointing at the computer screen,

"Ok miss, there are 12 boxes here, you get 3 tries, among them are empty boxes and the products and the mystery logos, so good luck."

So I clicked on 3 boxes, I got one product (Maxwell, I think), one empty box and one mystery logo thingy.

"Wah, miss, you very lucky oh! Ok, for the product, you won this, (showing me those gel hot/cold pads), can use for fever, eyebags, etc. Then the mystery logo,you can stand a chance to be our Product Idol (I think she meant spokesperson) and will get to bring the product home too, do you wanna continue drawing?"

*I look over at my dad*

"Go ahead" he says. Then I drew again. Same concept. 16 boxes this time, 3 tries, 80% chance of failing, she says.

"I'm hungry," I thought. "Let's get this over with."

Then I clicked 3 boxes, first box empty, second box something, 3 box something. So the girl was like shouting in my ear (prolly from the loud music), "congratulations miss!"

"You won the sauna belt, and a massage chair! Wah, you so lucky today! So far only 1 person has won, and you're the 2nd! There are only 10 of these for grabs! Congratulations!"

I looked around and looked at my dad, took a glance at the men working behind, they were like bored. In my mind, I was thinking,

"if this happened so rarely, if someone won, they would at least look or keipo right?"
wo

But these men look so used to it. Something's not right.

The lady goes on to call the boss, to make sure nothing went wrong, then the boss talked to me, to make sure that the lady didn't click for me, I clicked myself, yada yada yada.

"Congratulations, miss!" The man said, "You're very lucky! (So I've heard.) So now you can bring these prizes home, but there are just 3 conditions (Oh boy, here it comes). First, you have to take a picture with us (shit, I'm underdressed, but do-able)."

"Yea sure, what else?"

"Second, when you bring the product home, you cannot sell it off for profit, and be sure to fulfill your duties as the local spokesperson." (understandable)

"Ok, then?"

"Third, do you see the RM300 voucher on your screen?"

"Uhuh."

"You have to use that to buy some products of ours, with that voucher. If you have any problems, ask our employees. Okay, Congratulations!!"

"Sure".

So I look at the product lines, thinking hmm... maybe could get the blender after all, then she said,

"Oh no, it's a different line of products."

She showed me this water purifier for the whole house, the water based vacuum cleaner, the pots and pans, another massage chair, and a home theatre surround sound system that looks oddly familiar. The men I saw just now were introducing some of their other products too.

The prices for all these things average about RM3k to RM4k, but I could use my credit card to deduct every month for 2 years. But then again, I saw the products, like nothing that I liked, I asked my dad if he liked anything (since basically, he's the one paying for my credit card).

He shrugged it off. I was wondering why he was giving me this annoyed look. Maybe I'm taking too much of his time.

Then I declined them, and said I didn't want it. The lady looked annoyed, and tried to use reverse psychology and said

"Ok lorr, miss, so we just put this back up for the draw lorr..."

"Yea sure."

"But remember, you already registered for this game before, so means next time you cannot play again."

"Okay, I'll remember that."

*She grumbles incoherently over the loud music*

I shrugged it off and walked away with my dad. We bought some waffles and he told me that he actually met a similar group of people in KL a few years back. He won some table lamps, then had to add on RM4k+ for a sound system.

"Oh no wonder the sound system looked familiar! It's the one at home!"

"Yea, I thought I was so lucky too, then I took the taxi back to the hotel, and the taxi driver said I was ripped off. Damn!"

"Haha, see, your daughter not that dumb leh. Smarter than you. You see those men, you can tell they're very bad actors, like trying to show off all their products only, but when you win like no reaction, like common edi. Even the lady said Only 10 massage chair to be won, but they showed me their KL pictures of past winners, there was at least 30 of em in one year. Dumb."

So yea, point of this bizzarely long post is, don't be so gullible to believe these draws. It's true that they have warranties and the brands are known and the stuff is genuine. But do remember, they are in fact (over)charging you for a product that is not worth that much coz they're compensating for the free product that they're allegedly giving you.

The loud music and the hype of you thinking that you have won makes you think irrationally. Be sure to check out your surroundings, check their body language is it genuine.

If you really want the product, go to their retail stores to ask about their promotions. I bet they'll give a better price than RM6999 for a massage chair anyways.

Cheers!

Be smart, people.

Besides, who the hell sells RM4999 for some aluminium pots? wtf.

I found this today...

2010-02-04T17:24:00.004+08:00

Went shopping with the sisters today, for bling blings for my dead ugly camera. Then I saw some really cute things. Like these.

Another set.

Nice right? These are like post-its. For books. Konon this year I wanna be artsy and studious bah... hahah..

We'll see... Hahah.. =p

Lunch Today

2010-02-03T13:05:00.001+08:00

I made Corn Beef+Egg fried rice for lunch. Nyums.I think I made people worry about me when I get mad, but I can handle my emotions, then again, I'm sorry. Chill, everyone should relax too. =)

Cheers!

Om nom nom nom

My Sweetie Pie

2010-02-01T16:40:00.003+08:00

Though it's not actually sweet.

Uncle Ray brought home some of this Mrs Mac's Famous Beef Pie from Australia. Poor guy had to bring boxes of pie back, hand carried, coz you know, luggage handlers chuck your stuff anyway, even with the sticker that says "FRAGILE".

It's beef pie, literally packed in plastic bags, frozen, then shipped out to stores. So yea, I unpacked them and put them on a tray ready to shove em into my oven.

So while waiting, let's google this Mrs Mac and see how famous is she.

Oh lookie, I found her on wiki! I know, I know. Not a reliable source of information, but we're jsut reading this for the sake of getting to know Mrs Mac ok?

So yea, here, it says, Mrs Mac's Pies are sold largely throughout Australia and NZ, manufactured in Perth!

Oh see, the pie's done!

I took a bit off it, to show you how succulent and juicy(oh wait, same meaning) and ooooh...

My skillz are bad, forgive me, but it is lovely.

Gonna down this baby with some soda too! Yums!

Here's a list of products Mrs Mac sells, so you know, whoever goes to Perth or wherever that sells the line.

ADV: This is late...

2010-01-30T12:47:00.005+08:00

... but I still gotta write this.

Coz I spent TWO HUNDRED OVER ringgit worth of SkinFood Products, so help me, I'm gonna write about almost all of the stuff I buy from there now.

Which surprisingly, I don't have much criticism. Not coz I spent almost a third of my salary there either. The stuff there is actually quite good. Provided you ask for what you need.

Don't go there and ask, "What do you recommend?"

Ask properly and say, "What do you recommend for oily/dry/acne prone skin/etc skin?"

Seriously, give them a chance to explain. Don't pretend to be a pro and say I want this this this, but listen! Trust me, coz more than a few times, I thought I did my research but I still end up with shitty products not right for me. Coz reviews are based on people with that certain type of skin, so it might not actually suit you.

So yea, enough ranting. I owe you guys this.

Most people who have actually stuck their face close enough to mine, would have noticed I have a lot of enlarged pores. Coz I never really bothered with my face since I was young. It's repulsive like seriously. I don't even know why guys bother to kiss me, coz they'll zoom in and see it. Gosh!

So I showed you the Pore Pack I bought from Skin Food, so till I'm rich enough to buy enough and cover my whole face with it to pull out all the yuckies in my pores, I'll just settle on my nose then.

After using the Pore Pack, remember to ALWAYS use a product that helps with closing up the pores. Trust me. That's how I ended up with the big pores in the first place. Certain toners help (remember to ask which ones) or for me now, I match it with this.

A SkinFood Peach Sake Pore Essence mask sheet. On the cover it says, it controls the enlarged pores and excessive serum with peach extract and sake (Japanese fermented liquor).

Yes, I have pimples too.

~~I also spent RM(I-forgot-how-much) on~~

~~SkinFood Banana-Vanilla Concealer to hide em ok?~~

Just put it on for 10-15 mins. You know there are some masks that if you put on too long, it makes your skin feel too dry? This one doesn't. You can literally feel your skin absorbing the sake.

The natural alcohol from the peach and the sake kinda stings the skin a bit at first use, but you can feel the skin tightened, and when done you feel so refreshed!

Also, your face will smell so sweet that after the shrunken pores don't repulse guys, they might actually feel like giving pecks on my cheeks. ^^ Yes, I like pecks on the cheeks. It's sweet.

xoxo

Pic of the day (which I have neglected to post daily anyways so I don't know why still do this anyway):

Nian Gao 年糕.
I tried explaining the origins and stories and beliefs of this to H,
but I think it didn't go through in the right way. Haha.
Need to find those Children's Chinese Storybooks next time.

Things to make me calm down

2010-01-26T13:53:00.003+08:00

Picture of the day:

Candy! Eye Candy?

Starting on my Shoes.

Need a few days to see the outcome k?

Still bloody pissed. Ugh. No, I will never forgive her. I will not do anything about her anymore. She is no longer my sister as long as she continues that kind of lifestyle. No. No way Jose!

Screw whoever thinks otherwise, coz I have given her many chances, and the other Sister, is helping her, smuggling her out. No. That one I can forgive but doesn't mean I agree with it.

Aww Snap(shot)!

2010-01-21T15:35:00.002+08:00

Yay! First day back in Labuan and it's on my birthday! Daddy told me to go to my room and find my present! Guess what I found?

A new camera!!

Oh and on an unrelated note, Photoshop Elements is growing on me. There's so many cute things on it for collages. Yes H*, I don't really hate it that much now. *rolls eyes*

So yea, new camera! So I wasn't quite sure whether it is good, Henry says it's good. So I took a random shot with my own camera using macro, then another shot with the new camera with the same functions.

OMG, better and sharper right? Yay! Thank you daddy! Now I can camwhore even more. Starting tonight. LOL.

p/s: Will update on one of my most memorable birthdays in my eye candy. ^-^ So prolly Wiena could post them up there, and i'll reblog em? hahaha... >.<

Flower that wont die...

2010-01-18T14:13:00.003+08:00

Wow, I've been making so much arts and crafts lately that I think I might need to invest on a proper folder for all these things. =p

I wonder if daddy will sponsor.

So yea, Ham wanted to do something "epic" with me. Something that no one else has ever done with me. *coughs* Not those naughty things la k?

He showed me this website, and straight away, I'm in!

So we started printing. Whoo~ Have been printing a lot lately. Might have to buy ink again soon. Haha.

Cut cut!

I use pen knife a lot faster k? Also coz I prefer to do straight lines.

Poor Ham. Left to do the round edges.

After about 3 hours of grueling labour. Tada!

Pic 1.

Pic 2.

Pic 3.

Pic 4.

3 hours of work worr.

Of course take many pics. Haha

Click here for instructions and paper designs to do it yourself. ^^

Oops, instructions are here. That was just the cut outs.

Finished Planner

2010-01-16T21:43:00.002+08:00

From the previous post, I made a planner. It wasn't exactly finished.

I've binded it.

Put some red on the corners and some edges to give if a sturdier feel.

As you can see it's transparent,

and I stuck a heart shape on the transparent cover

so it has even more of a 3D feel.

The cover is larger than the tabs,

so it protects them a bit at least.

And it's not too thick, so it's a lot lighter to bring around.

I'm so proud of this one though.

Then again, I feel like making a different one.

Perhaps notepads?

So maybe I'd sell some of em.

Anyone wants custom made or personalized notepads?

Handmade 2010 planner

2010-01-16T10:26:00.003+08:00

Have been so bored that I even made a 2010 mini planner lately.

The design is kept simple.

The cover page is like 3D.

Tada! Before binding it.

I'm still looking for a harder cover to protect this. The papers are made of sketching blocks so they are quite tough but not nice if halfway through the year it's already cacat right?

There's even a mini cutout calendar inside. ^^

So dont have to keep flipping the book.

Then each month has it's notes page.

And quotes on the bottom left corner too!

See? I even have a tab for sketches.

Doodling lah, but sketches sounds more impressive. Hoho.

Yvonne.Esmeralda

Sorry the images are kinda dark. Haven't been in the mood to edit pictures. >.<

Random Pic of the Day:

Light photography is way fun, but I cant seem to control it yet.

I shall put RPOTD at the bottom from now on k? ^^

Girls' Night Out

2010-01-12T02:16:00.005+08:00

Random pic of the Day:

Musical fountains outside of Bintang Plaza is almost ready.

Not bad. Not as awesome as HK Disneyland though.
Sigh. I miss HK!

Went out with Wiena today. Watched "A Christmas Carol" with her. The movie was ok, effects all were nice, but I think I watched too many versions of Dickens' novel. It sorta gets boring. Though Jim Carrey actually made Scrooge really mean. Makes a person think though.

Before the movie, went to Secret Recipe's for some snacks. Of course, pics! I need to take more pics, otherwise this blog will be so dead.

Say cheese!

Chocolate Indulgence.

Om nom nom

Black Pepper Lamb Pie.

I've been craving for lamb somehow, all day.

So after 2 hours of the movie, we went to Siamese Secrets for dinner. >.<>

So concentrating on the menu.

French Onion Soup.

Not as good as the Italian Cafe in Labuan though.

Hawaiian Pizza.

Yes, we took pic of this too.

And our bill came out with an intriguing number. RM33.33. Does that mean anything?

My life revolves around Food

2010-01-10T15:17:00.002+08:00

Random Pic of the Day:

I've been eating a lot.

Though I keep complaining to Ham, and he feels complied to help me be more consistent with my New Year's Resolution, but I blame him when I'm hungry. Poor fella. Haha. Proves you shouldn't take me too seriously sometimes. I'm contradictory.
Then again, I think it's better if I kept my appetite, but boost my exercise regime. Okay, so I suppose I should start after the 21st, and before CNY. Otherwise, I can't fit into my new outfits.

Sigh.

Shopping!

2010-01-09T17:33:00.004+08:00

Watched Alvin and the Chipmunks 2 with Ham. I love THEO!!! Dang cute ok?Haha.

Then we went to buy so much stuff! My poor daddy... >.<

Summarizing everything, coz kinda tired now. My poor feet are aching. I need hugs.

Bought new supplies for the new sem.

Pooh Bear cushions for my chair.

In case my fat butt needs more padding.

More SkinFood stuff.

One for the soles of my feet.

And some masks. I really need to start taking care of my face.

Flowers for the new bulletin board that I'm gonna hang up.

The new board I bought. It's white. Contrast to black.

A new 4 Port USB Hub. Cute right? Flowers!!

Gonna try to control my expenditure now. >.<

Ok. Sleepy nao. Nite nite. It's 5.54pm and i'm gonna sleep.

Dolled Up

2010-01-09T09:27:00.002+08:00

Random Pic of the day:

Should I do a make up DIY again?

Anyways, can't wait to go out and watch Alvin and the Chipmunks the Squeakuel... and no, it'll definitely not be better than the original cartoons... So stop telling me how awesome it is.

ADV: SkinFood Pore Pack Review

2010-01-07T18:08:00.002+08:00

As promised, reviews. Just one product at a time though. Don't wanna make it seem like those advertisement blogs.

Anyways, yea, bought this SkinFood "Black Beans Nose Pack" for about RM20(?).

It looked like any regular pore pack to be honest. I didn't really disliked the Biore brand that I normally use, seeing that's one of the more commonly found one in the market.

So, I gave it a try, then at first glance,

it didn't really seem like it "pulled" out a lot of black heads.

Then as I look more closely, it did. Normally the Biore packs show more "hair" instead of beads (blackheads), coz I assumed, the beads are harder to pull out.

Turns out, SkinFood did a better job, coz though the "hair" is not visible,

but with a closer look, the pack pulled out the blackheads too!

So I'd say roughly RM20 per pack, with 7 pieces inside is actually not too bad. Could consider purchasing this again. ^^

See? I sacrifice so much to inform you guys what this is and the results, showing the dirt on my face too, remember to click on my ads, so I can earn more. >.<>giggles*

Cheers.

p/s: Windows 7 rocks!

In hopes to inspire my studies

2010-01-07T11:25:00.003+08:00

Random Pic of the day:

I finished my bulletin board. It has the whole Fall/Autumn look. Nice for the new sem, right?

First Few Days in Miri

2010-01-05T10:15:00.002+08:00

Random Pic of the Day: Wiena gave me this awesome idea to take a random picture of anything and post it up. Well it's a good idea, coz in the event I dont have anything to say, I can just post a pic. ^^ So maybe this might replace my "Unrelated" segment.

Bought a cardigan from Nicole. RM69.90

Got a black plastic board which is meant to be my personal bulletin board, but I totally have no idea what to decorate it with. Still googling through images to see if inspiration hits.

Shopped a lot since I came back to Miri. I bought RM250 worth of SkinFood products. Like omfg. Poor daddy. Wait. It's my salary money. Ok. Nevermind.

I bought that much coz the lady said, RM200 I get a 2010 planner, and since the nicer planners in Popular runs up to RM120++, so RM200 + makeup isn't all that bad. Then when I ran up to RM200, she said RM250 for the calendar. FML. Then she said RM300 inclusive of an unmbrella. Luckily the unbrella was a fugly pink.

Bought the Peach Sake BB Cream, Almond Eyeliner, Banana Concealer, Peach Sake Loose Powder, Black Peas Pore Pack, and Lettuce and Cucumber mask. Oh, and a make up brush. I shall write a review after a week's test.

Cheers.

p/s: watched Sherlock Holmes. Robert Downey Jr is an excellent actor and all, but he doesn't bring the Sherlock Holmes deductive reasoning "feel" to it. If you have never read Sir Arthur Conan Doyle, you should enjoy the movie; but if you're like me, read most of the stories, then no, it doesn't do Sherlock justice. And besides, whatever happened to his deerskin hat?

9 things I did in 2009

2010-01-01T16:55:00.003+08:00

Unrelated: Flying off to Miri tomorrow, and I already kinda miss home. Why is the grass always greener on the other side?

1. January - Spent a week in KK with my ex-fiance

2. June - Did some crazy stuff with them girls

3. July - Got dumped by my fiance of 3 years

4. August - Did a photoshoot to get revenge.

5. October - Went to HK!! Disneyland!

6. October - Someone new came into my life

7. The next day after #6 - Went to my first prom with him

8. November - Moved

9. 31st Dec (Yesterday) - This.........

Went for BBQ with dad's friends.
Finished about 10pm, then while getting ready to go home,
taking away some leftovers and packing the containers into the car,
missed my step and fell down a near-1-meter-deep drain.

The corner scraped some skin and flesh off and knocked on my bone.
Unbelievably painful, ok?
I was squatting at the car porch there calling for my dad, but he couldn't see me coz I was blocked by flowers and a pillar.
Then when he found me, he was so shocked that I was bleeding.

I was in so much pain and was trying not to cry.
Then uncle helped me put on a bandaid.
Like muthafuckingly tight and painful ok?

But within the next 5 minuutes, the bandaid was overflowing with blood already.
Beads of bloof forming over the bandaid surface.
Shit.

Went back home and put on a new bandaid after my dad cleaned my wounds.
Fuck. Damn painful!

You know how I slept? I couldn't move!
And yet the blood still flowed and stained my other leg and the bedsheets.
It looked like period stains, though I am having the cycle, but not the point.

Ugh. Dried blood over the wounds. Had to clean the wound again.
Went to the clinic, coz we were worried why the bleeding has not stopped even till this morning.

Bloody hell (literally).
First day of 2010, at a clinic getting a dressing. Shit.

At least the bleeding stopped. But I'm still crutching everywhere I go.
Damn.

So I suppose it's an interesting start to a new year right? Lol.
So, cheers.

p/s: Same New Years resolutions this year as the others. Lose weight. Work harder. Be happy.

venganza?

2009-12-25T17:40:00.002+08:00

I don't belong in that world anymore.

No more wishes of finding rings in "tong yuen". No more hoping he'd call. No more thinking he's even human enough to stay friends. Sometimes, I wonder what's the point of trying to live in this world, if even the people I love most force me to a corner and watch me die without even trying to ask about how it is...

I can't even be friends with people I like but when she has pictures with another man, everything is fine. He got frustrated with me coz he loved me. But with her, logically it's not love. He knows it. He tried to love her. But he knows it's in jeopardy. I can't do anything to protect him anymore. Things are getting out of hand.

There is a villain out there. And I fear he is a threat to a secret that I hold sacred. Mike, if you're reading this, fuck, I really hope you are reading this. Venganza, knows the secret. The secret. Shit. If you dont figure out what to do, you and I both are gonna be in hot soup. Like for serious. Settle it! It's your mess, and I'm not cleaning it!!! You did this, you handle it!

*deep breaths*

Sorry. Whatever happens, I know it'll be fine. I'm not the main target here. I'm just the party that doesn't wanna be collateral damage.

Baby, baby

2009-12-21T20:40:00.003+08:00

Unrelated: Sometimes I wonder have I made the right choice. Even till today, I'm still unsure. Then again, I'm not quitter. Though I'm still a girl. I definitely have those feelings that will annoy him, and he doesn't seem to understand that I need sensitivity over humour. *sigh* I wonder about the future...

Baby sitting.

Not something I totally love. The crying, the screaming (from me), the feeding, the messes (from both ends of the baby).

I avoid it if I could.

So now, during the hols, instead of babysitting, I work for my mum. A lot less of a fuss. Just a lot of type playing games and watching movie series(es??).

Then my mum brings in this baby and makes my babysit her. Coz her grandma is busy catering the cafeteria, and the baby likes my air-conditioned room. So, I'm stuck with the baby. FML.

Baby rubbing her face on Pooh's belly. So cute!

Then this little angel won my heart with her cuteness. She never cried. Not once! When she's hungry, she starts grabbing my collar. * ahem* ~~You know what she wants - breastfeeding.~~

She has her mood swings, but she just sits there and pout. She doesn't cry! When she wants people to carry her, she arches her back and raises her arms. When she stares at you drinking, it means she's thirsty.

She's so precious!

And she has that baby smell. You know, not the baby powder smell, but the natural soft sweet gentle baby smell. *sigh* So amazing how a baby's gesture, or a smile, or even a random sound she voices can steal your heart away.

She's so clingy. I loves being carried. But she's as heavy as a sack of rice, if the sack of rice kept wriggling around. Heavy. My arms are toned coz of her.

Can't even take a picture of her without her not moving. Had to rock her to make her smile, but always too late to catch it. Haha. I'm so lame.

Take 1.

Take 2.

Take 3. Started grabbing my collar. Hungry~

Take 4. Curious.

Take 5.

Take 6. Grumpy. Just woke up.

Take 7. Achoo! Awww.... precious!

Take 8. Eating. Like so 冤枉 like that. Haha.

Take 9. Too dark to see, but she's asleep in my arms.

Take 10. With Theo. Kidnapped. "Help, mummy!!"

So I learned that though babies are messy and loud and annoying most times, but every now then then you come across gems like this angel who turn your perspective around. I want a baby. I've been saying that for a while now. I want a baby! Haha. Freaked him out I bet when I told him.

Anyways, dinner time. McD nuggets for dinner only, coz on diet and all. Mum said I'm fat, cant fit into my cheongsam. Oh boo.

Exam Results are Out!!

2009-12-09T09:52:00.002+08:00

Unrelated: Have been working lately at my mum's Golf Equipment shop. If Mike, were here, he'd surely say I'm looking for my own trouble, stress and all. *shrugs* Well he's right sometimes.

After almost every exam in my life after Foundations, I have to worry bout the results. Back then, my results were quite... err... let's say "agreeable". My parents would have to nag me to study, of course, but obviously, I never did.

Somehow, I still could float amongst the top of the pack. *Giggles*

Then as years go by, the real results are finally showing. I got my first failed subject in Uni. How lame is that? So now, I try to work hard, which is tough, considering I never had to study for anything before.

Ugh.

The unbearable pain to wait for the results. With my parents nagging at me all the time.

Ugh.

Then coming up with lame excuses and lies to make things easier. Which never works by the way. *rolls eyes*

Well our results are out today. I just got mine. It's so-so for the standard I'm in. Anyways. Good luck to everyone who's still waiting.

Cheers!

In Memory Of...

2009-12-05T22:40:00.003+08:00

Unrelated: Days going by without me remember what day or what date it is. Ugh. I'm growing old. Or I'm just too tired to care?

... Chuck.

Only few posts ago I blogged bout my puppies. A supporting character appeared in many of the photos.

The big brother to the puppies...

...the guardian/protector...

...the runt of his litter when he was still a puppy himself...

...the one who the puppies miss and cry for...

...Chuck.

"Why were you so dumb to run out onto the road? Why didn't you avoid the cars? Why? Hope you're in a better place now. A place where you won't feel the pain."

R.I.P.

These Days...

2009-11-30T10:05:00.002+08:00

Unrelated: More and more thoughts clouding my mind. Poor H* has to deal with it afterwards. Hmm...

I love breakfast with my family. Well you know, Labuan nothing much to offer, even food. But there are a few things that only Labuan does it right.

Soon Hin Leong coffee house is like ALWAYS PACKED.

Not only you have to wait to be seated, you have to wait to be served.

The Fish Head Noodles here are good, till you have to wait up to 45mins to eat. The tauke cooks each bowl individually, so you can make custom requests too ~~(but you have to wait longer lah)~~!
Anyways, yea. Try it if you have the chance to come here. Oh and it's purely fish. Which means H* can have it too, if for some silly reason he came here.

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Stuck in a box with Theo

Breaking out of the box

I guess I miss taking nice shots, but you know, there are not that many amateur photographers looking for models now. *Sigh... *

The Best Damn Thing

2009-11-28T17:10:00.003+08:00

Unrelated: I'm beginning to be attached to Theo. As in, I'm really treating him like my son. *wonders* Am I being crazy? LOLs.

Remember that controversial pics that I took back then? Well those of you who know me personally most probably have seen it. I think they're not available anywhere anymore though.

Actually I kinda liked them. Just too bad I couldn't show them to everyone. They're sorta, well, PG 13. Though no actual nudity was involved, but the people I care for minded it, so, yea, no one shall see it.

However, I'm still into that one "hottest" photo. *giggles* Except for my short hair, I loved it.

So, I did some more photoshopping. Made it more "friendly" ~~to a certain PG13 point~~. =p

Cute no?

I somehow liked the maid costume. Not because it seems kinky, but I just like black and white outifts. I'm not a totally pink and colorful girl. Check my wardrobe and you'll see.

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And yes, you know you love me and that girl next to you will never be me. I'm definitely the best damn fantasy that you will ever have.

Rollie Pollie Puppies!

2009-11-26T21:25:00.007+08:00

Unrelated: I'm actually quite frustrated. But not sure if I should tell him or not. Sigh. How?

I got more puppies again. Came back home and was greeted by the adorable bunch. Oh btw, I'm back in Labuan. Sorry for not updating more often. *grins*

So here are so much pictures of them that will murder your bandwidth. I suggest clicking the post title and open only this one post so only this post's pictures will load.

*sniffs*
"What's this?"

"Mooooom! He teased me!"
*acting innocent*

"No! No! I lose! I lose!"
*gnaws*

"No! No! I'm sorry I'm sorry!"

*kiss* ♥

"Taro, come see!"
*yawns* "No, Pooper!"

"... 7, 8, 9... what comes after 9?"

"... into the depths of the jungle the brave pup treks through in the dangerous wild..."

Not exactly the best hiding place...

*exploring*

How Pooper got his name

Left to right: Cream Puff, Taro, TJ, Theo II, Pooper & Chuck

*emo*

*waiting to pounce*

"Enemy detected." *shh*

*Nuzzle*

"Submarine periscope, UP!"

"Lunch!"

"They won't share with me..."

*om nom nom*
"FML"

"Why are you barking at me?"

"?"

*Nibbles*

*bites*
"Ow! Ow!"

*sigh*
"Must we go?"

"But we don't wanna go swimming..."

"Why don't you have a leash? No fair..."

*shake*
*dog-tired*

Progress?

2009-11-18T14:54:00.002+08:00

Unrelated: Feeling so crappy. I'll never be good enough. No wonder everyone left. Leave. Leave. Go.

Moving Day. Yes, I know I already mentioned it... it's 2:58 now, and I'm only 70% packed. wtf. Ah Bong will be here around 4. Crap.

I'm so so tired. Sigh... But I can't wait to move to the new place. I'm sick of this place after staying here so long.

Goodbye 3712, hello..... wait... what's the address again?

Moving Day

2009-11-18T11:57:00.002+08:00

Finished exam today!

Today is also moving day... everything's packed so tight, literally. Kinda getting tired. I need some real rest. I need some real massages.. I need cash to decorate my new room..

Anyone willing to pay me to blog about them? Or design posters for them?

Back to packing...

Definitely still not studying

2009-11-11T18:23:00.002+08:00

Why is it that when I'm supposed to be studying, I'm doing something else? Like blogging. Duh... I'm so gonna fail.

Anyways, fooled around with Photoshop a bit before settling down to study in the afternoon.

The emoness and darkness of this prolly is due to the fact I'm stuck studying. And that's baby Theodore sitting at the side. Debut!

Shine! In the darkness and shit of the Exams

2009-11-11T13:08:00.002+08:00

Unrelated: Things I don't normally say, doesn't mean I don't acknowledge them. Just that I choose to be polite and not say it. Bear your consequences and be considerate.

Exams are here. And as usual I'm damn distracted. FML. Supposed to be studying, so I end up playing with photoshop. *scoffs* naturally....

Well it's about time I stood up for myself right?

Well good luck to everyone facing their exams now or sometime in the near future! ^^ All the best and God bless. We shall raise in triumphant as long as we survive. ~~(Hope so)~~

阴暗的第四个月

2009-11-09T14:10:00.003+08:00

Four full moons have past by since then. Every full moon is never totally full or bright. The glow that made it special left. The glow that made everyone look in envy is gone.

The stars are not worth looking at anymore. It used to be how people used to find their way home if they are lost, but when I look up, I find nothing but tears. Home, is where loved ones are. Beloved ones. Ones that I will never hesitate to sacrifice anything in the world for. Anything, even my life.

The sea's surface is calm to the sailors' eyes, but beneath the shining ripples of waves, a turmoil of war wages deeper below. How does one control the fury of the ocean? One does not. You let it keep going for millions of years.

No one, understands how these things work, but one. But what if that one, gave up and let everything go? Plants wither and die, nothing but a memory of the glory days when the roses were still pink in bloom, wrapped in a green wrapper. The days when the roses were able to make a girl happy when she received them. They are now nothing but dried up petals, in a small bag, hidden in a box or drawer somewhere where no one cares or even looks at them anymore.

Deleted from memory. Faded. Broken. Unrepairable.

Risotto Vegetariano

2009-11-03T22:42:00.002+08:00

Updates: I have been saying I wanna learn the guitar, so I shall. See when I go buy. Haha.

About an hour ago, I started feeling hungry. Like seriously wtf, since I already cooked chicken and cabbage broth with a few fishballs. And some rice to go with it for dinner.

How can I be hungry again at 10pm? Right? What ever. I sound like a pregnant lady with cravings. *Shivers*

So I got off my bed and looked for what to cook.

I had extra rice, brinjals, tomatoes and onions... So? Le duh~ Vegan Risotto! Yum!!

See? So nice! Someday I'll post the recipe k?

Cheers... I better go finish my rice before it cools...

Steps Up the Stairs

2009-11-01T13:08:00.003+08:00

Unrelated: Missing some dear friends. Wiena, Janet and some old times with Bivi when all of us were single, we used to hang out, now that we have other priorities. Why? Why must we choose and divide our time that way? We're becoming Marshall. "I" to "we", mutating into one glob.

Bored again, but not enough to think of what to blog about. Might actually take up on the how to do your own French Manicure soon. Still thinking am I that bored yet.

So here's a picture to humour you guys for now.

Cheers people!

Halloween 2009

2009-10-31T15:16:00.002+08:00

Unrelated: Somehow feel like I keep running low on cash. Money has been disappearing from my purse for no reason. Literally. I need to find a job. Damn.

I know I'm way behind in blogging. Sorry, I have been quite swamped with other stuff at the moment, but will resume soon enough. Patience dears.

In the mean time...

Happy Halloween!!! Boo~

HK Trip Part 2 - Family

2009-10-17T22:56:00.003+08:00

Unrelated: Today has been such a shitty day, that I can't bloody believe it. Ugh. I can't believe I'm so dumb. Aargh!

Well, when we were in Hong Kong, we managed to catch up with some of our family there.

Of course like typical Chinese gatherings, we go for dinner together.
In my family, my dad doesn't eat vegetables much. So a lot of meat was consumed during this holiday.

A lot of lamb and beef and seafood.

Like seriously a lot of meat.

After that hols, I gained back the weight that I lost during my depression. Haha. F***, I still need to work out more.

Because…

2009-10-12T22:36:00.002+08:00

Rays slowly creep in as I hear his shallow breaths of slumber. I guess he did not sleep well after what happened to me last night. Though it did not show, but I could tell he was somehow worried about me.

"Oh well, let him sleep a bit then," I thought.

I sat in front of the computer, browsing through pictures of me and this other guy, and I let out a sigh. He's still a part of my life, but he's in the past. He broke me into pieces for a boyfriend stealer girl. I turned around and saw a guy who was willing to try and fix me, help me become strong again.

Here is a guy though seemingly tough on the outside, but still is capable of gentleness. He is full of confidence and leads with a passion, yet I could tell, he was more than that, that he needs support sometimes too. Uncertain if I could be the one to support him, since I can barely stand on my own. I am willing to try my best to be there by his side if he ever needs me I guess.

As for the future, quite frankly, I cannot see it. I do not know what is going to happen in the future. I do not dare to even hope for the future, for the last time I did, when my dreams shattered, I crumbled. So for now, I guess just enjoying day by day helps.

Knowing that someone wants to hold my hand as I tremble in fear, giving me his jacket to give me a sense of security, and rubbing my shoulders and telling me everything is alright now, is slowly patching up the void that someone left in my heart. Slowly, even my best friends can see, my smile is gradually coming back.

I hear a yawn in the background. He is waking up. I lie next to him and hug him, welcoming him to a new day.

Unrelated: As heartbreaking it is, but I must still find a way to continue living, so everyday I must put on a brave face and continue taking each step in stride. I have to keep going somehow, right? Doesn't mean I have quit though.

Prom Night 2009

2009-10-09T22:16:00.003+08:00

Unrelated: The weather's turning freaky now. I heard Kelantan is gonna hit. If you're reading this and you're from there, please take care.

Unrelated 2: HK post continued on the next. Haha. Patience k?

I haven't posted on the prom which I was so excited about. It's my very first one. I wanted to save it for someone special but sadly we never had the chance. *shrugs*

I had a lot of fun that day. Starting from preparing for going there, I had so much fun putting on make up for up to 3 hours. New record long. Those who know me, knows that I can finish in like 3 minutes.

I slowly put on layers of BB Cream as foundation, then concealer for unsightly blemishes. Then I had fun with the eyelashes then the final touch ups all the way till he* came.

It was nice that when someone say you look pretty. It gives you that extra confidence boost to last the whole night of facing a room full of beautifully decorated people without feeling low.

Of course that was a night where friends could hang out and be silly. Though everyone was equally lovely, but with a right spark, I somehow had this special feeling of being special.

A little spark ignited by someone who has recently entered my life. I admit, I'm very insecure for all the experience I have had in the past, and I am seriously paranoid. Yet, you still managed to remain calm through it all. Thank you.

Taking pictures without the ring
to shine around the corner of my eyes seems weird,
but like you said, it will get better right?

"There's something bout the way the streets look when it's just rained
There's a glow off the pavement, you walk me to the car
And you know I wanna ask you to dance right there
In the middle of the parking lot, yeah.

We're driving down the road, I wonder if you know
I'm trying so hard not to get caught up now
But you're just so cool, running fingers through your hair
Absent-mindedly making me want you

And I don't know how it gets better than this
You take my hand and drag me head first, fearless
And I don't know why but with you I'd dance
In a storm in my best dress, fearless." - Taylor Swift, Fearless

HK Trip Part 1 - Disneyland

2009-10-08T12:13:00.004+08:00

Unrelated: Somehow Mandy is upset with me. Have I done something wrong that is so unforgivable that she have to be this way. I know only time can show them how much I still care and still waiting.

Procrastinated long enough for the HK posts. Macau posts afterwards then. Haha. Too many pics, and these are just some. Wtf.

So yea, went to HK during our Raya break with my parents. Had so much fun that I took one too many pictures and ended up editing the life out of me.

There were so many sights to see...
And a lot of food to eat...
A lot of food....
We lived in the Mongkok area. Loads of food and sights. Though in the films it shows Mongkok to be one of those places with loads of pubs and prostitutes and all that, but it does have a different district with more "family-friendly" environments.

So throughout the whole holiday, I was the navigator.
With nothing but a map, a pen and the sun for directions, we walked (and took the subway) around HK. Oh and a few policemen helped too.. *Giggles*

Of course, my main reason for the HK trip is Disneyland. Whoo~

Basically, I grew up with anything Disney. So to me, going to Disneyland is almost like a dream come true. Though I still am targeting to go to the one in Florida, but HK is a good start.

And besides, it was a lovely time with my family. It's been ages since our last proper holiday. Ok, there was the Kuching trip but way beside the point. *Grins*

Disneyland was truely amazing. A land filled with so many childhood memories that brings out the smiles and joy and the a lot of the kid in me.

I saw so many characters that has accompanied me as I grew up, all the through the land, music that I was so familiar with played as I sing along. So many wonders that I enjoyed.

Of course, when I was there, I was indeed still a bit down, whenever I thought of Mike. So many things I really really wanted to share with him. To tell him. But everytime I saw a couple walk by, I was aware he was probably enjoying himself with her. I no longer hold a place in his smile.

(Whoa... way off topic now. Back to Disneyland)

So yea, I love travelling with my parents, though sometimes Mummy gets annoying, but it's fun when you get to decide the destinations yourself.
The magic of Disneyland lasts till late a night, with the fireworks spectacular that is so breathtaking that I almost cried when all the classic Disney songs were played in sync with the fireworks explosions.
At the end of the day, though there were squabbles, everything turned out well. I love my parents, for loving me, and working so hard to taking me to some place so marvellous, despite my moods.

Love you.

And yes, Disneyland was so worth the bloody feet ache that comes after.

They should have built a massage parlour there. I'd have gone. ^^

Flip My Pages

2009-09-26T21:34:00.003+08:00

Unrelated 1: Missing Mandy and Minnie and Matthew. Please never forget that I'm never far from you. I love you.

Unrelated 2: HK trip updates soon. Sorry to keep you guys waiting.

Craving for some books now. Ugh. I wish Christmas or my Birthday will come sooner.

My current wishlist:

The second book of the "Black Magician" trilogy. Hardcover.

Ever since Andie let me read Aphrodite,
I've been hooked on Russell Andrews.
I want the whole set!

Sam Bourne is also on my list.
This one seems like a good read.

Of course, the current bestseller of 2009.
The Lost Symbol

So who wants to sponsor me? lol.

*Runs away, yelling*
"Daddy~~~"

HongKong Here I Come

2009-09-18T16:07:00.003+08:00

Unrelated: I'm sorry that I made you feel bad. You know better than anyone that I'm not like that. I never intended for you to feel that way. I'm really sorry. There were no hard feelings for you. You must have misread, because I have not mentioned you in any way that will hurt you in my blog. But if you feel so, I'm sorry. I wish you all the best in your studies. I hope you will still remember the real me and the real you. Back when it was more innocent.

Going to Hong Kong soon. Yay! Flying off to KK first, then to Macau.
OMG... I'm so stoked!!

Need to not eat too much good food. Prom soon. Don't wanna embarrass myself and my partner... =.=" Hahaha.... Sorry, H.

Salmon!

2009-09-17T16:55:00.001+08:00

Loving home. Just got back less than a few hours and I'm greeted by a fridge full of freshly sliced salmon. *drools*

Stole a few pieces. Don't tell mummy. *giggles*

More upates and photos of my hols. Stay tuned. Cheers!

I can has a cooky?

2009-09-17T09:54:00.004+08:00

Unrelated: I found the scrapbook I made for you. I guess I was so upset, I shoved it deep under the table, hoping I won't ever see it. Now, I want to return it to you. I don't want it here.

I made a Brochure for PR Techniques class. I so hope I'm getting High Distinction for this. Haha...

Cook Monster Pastry Shop

*Disclaimer: I do not own the Cookie Monster pictures as they are of Sasame Street rights.

p/s: Flying back home soon. Yay!

>.<

2009-09-16T13:49:00.002+08:00

Unrelated: Thinking bout baby Mandy and Matthew. Missing them. I know there's no reason to be, but I do. I miss hugging them and watching them sleep. I miss kissing them when they are down and letting them know I love them more than anything.

I'm sick again. Ugh. How many times a year do I need to be sick? I'm tired of my body taking the fall before my mind. I'll end up lying there with no physical strength but plenty of energy to keep thinking nonsense.

My life is not exciting enough to blog. Haha.. Oops...

You can't believe how tired I am right now

2009-09-15T14:53:00.002+08:00

Unrelated: Excited bout the HK trip! Yay! Can't wait!

I'm so swamped in work. Have been staring at my computer screen for about 17 hours. Way tired. Ugh.

Cousin Jack's in Miri. Met up with him just now. Might meet him again. We'll see if there is anything blogworthy.

Yes, I have nothing to blog about. Just taking a break from work. Well time to dive in again.

Updated: Saw the picture

2009-09-12T21:38:00.004+08:00

Unrelated: I saw your picture. I broke down. You took away my future when you took her. Yet there you are, so happy. Not an ounce of guilt. I'm evil for thinking this way, but how could you?

Had fun playing archery today. Hurt my elbow though. Will post a pic of the injury later. Haha.

I've been spending a lot lately. Shoot. Need to control my spending.

Going to HK soon. I hope I can have fun and not think about some guy who broke me into a million pieces and can never be put right again, because he's selfish enough to not care.

Shit. I promised myself I won't think about it. Whatever. Screw it. I'm allowed to say I'm unhappy.

Here's a pic of my injury. It doesn't feel as bad as it looks. Haha. Oh well.

Updates on this week

2009-09-09T18:03:00.003+08:00

Unrelated: "Thoughts of Confessions" is getting to me. Not sure why. *Wonders*

Well, too lazy to blog about what's happening... So here's a summarized version with a picture of me. Incredibly convenient huh?

p/s: Am looking for an elegant prom dress.

I'm back

2009-09-04T23:12:00.002+08:00

Unrelated: Getting my life back together wasn't easy, but with some good friends and some eye candies, everything's gonna be just fine. *winks*

Yea, so everyone knows I've fallen out of love, but oh well. Cest la vie. ^^
Nothing much to blog about. Coz I've been busy lately. Sorry guys. Have to wait a bit longer. Coz I'm still pretty swamped.
But I will do my best to keep updating, showing more about my new life.
SO yea, wish me luck. In my studies, and my events and oh yea... duh... new love life?
So let's hope that all's well that ends well...
I'm open to all options. If in the event that Mike returns then ok, but it's going to be harder... But then again, I prefer someone else... hahah...

I'm not

2009-08-15T13:32:00.003+08:00

2 years from now.

I'm not in love, it's just an infatuation. He's too young... he's looking for something that I cannot offer him... Although he's good looking, but I can't...

Why are there so many temptations? why do I willingly go look for them then? why?? Oh gosh, but he's so good to look at... for someone to be so good at sports must have a nice body huh? crap... why these thoughts?? why? and i love to hear him sing too... so many things that i want but i must'nt... I mustn't destroy the fantasy that he has... sigh... if only i'm dead... =(

Loves & Crushes

2009-08-14T04:51:00.002+08:00

Somewhere years in the future, having the hardest crush on this cutest guy... He's serious about his studies, serious about serving God, and wonderful in sports... And plus, he's very talented in music...

Sometimes the way he talks to me, makes me feel like I'm the one he's"talking" to... like no other one in this world matters more... but then when other people's voices fade in again, I feel like it's just my imagination. How could a guy younger than me, of a mature and sound mind will like me? I think I'm thinking too much...

But he's so cute! how can I not think about him? Even when I sleep I think of him... what can a girl do? I'm already struggling with so many things on my plate... Oh Lord, what do you want me to do? Lord, close the door to those that you don't want me to choose Lord... Harden their hearts to say no, and leave me if they're not the ones you don't want me to be with... Oh Lord... please... Hmm...

But still... one of sweetest, most wonderful guys I've met... <3 so many things I wish I could do for him... I wish I could share his pain... Sigh...

The Aura of Nature?

2009-07-05T15:23:00.002+08:00

Unrelated: Woke up at 6 plus to eat Dim Sum but it wasn't opened. WTH?

I love Photoshop!

Oh my goodness... I was trying to make myself look like Poison Ivy but it didn't really work out that way, since I was wearing a Sesame Street shirt and jeans. So I look like a dead corpse and the air around me didn't make things look more cheerful.

I like the squirrel on the right hand top corner though. *grins*

K, will try to wear something more natural next time. For now, enjoy! ^^

Coz I dont have anything much to say lately

2009-07-04T20:05:00.002+08:00

Unrelated: Thinking bout changing my style of blogging. Wanna write more bout current events or fashion or pictures of me (vain, I know). Should I? Shouldn't I?

Unrelated 2: This is my phone's new wallpaper. Adorable right? My wallpaper also similar like this. Taken from nemu-nemu.com!

A lot more pictures of me. I was bored so I camwhored. I was still bored so I played with my photoshop. ~~(My specialty s changing eye colour, lip colour, rendering the lights and liquifying. Oh and hiding my pimples!)~~
I'm not very good at distorting the pictures. I need more tutorials and practice with this. Hahahah. Boy, I look weird!
Oh oh! I've been meaning to talk about this! My toothbrush holders. Was gonna be a whole post on this but cant think of what to write. So only one pic. So so so cute right???
Yea. So it's either I get my own dSLR or a semi-pro one like Alan's. Yes Alan, I read your blog. So to thank you, I'm giving your blog more exposure. ^^

Till then, I'm still deciding what to blog about. And I have to finish the banner designs. Oh buggeration!